This post is mostly for my own benefits. I’m in the last few days before I give birth to my second child. The days are cold and rainy and my 2 year old and I are stuck in the house. It is probably a blessing in disguise as it has forced me to slow down. I found this list on a blog I love to read called Foxs Lane and it motivated me to do write a list as a memory of these days. So here it goes!
Knowing- this pregnancy won’t last forever although sometimes it feels like it!
Wearing- my pyjamas…a lot…
Needing- a good full body massage!
Questioning- if I can put my mind and body through another labour and birth…
Liking- waking up in the morning and looking out the window at the beautiful gumtrees and the mist in the hills and sometimes Marvin, our resident kangaroo.
Disliking- not being able to drive because of the dizzy spells and fainting I had a couple of weeks ago. It has made me feel quite isolated and guilty for having to rely on family and friends.
Opening- up the fire place door every couple of hours to put more wood in.
Giggling- at my 2 year old. A never-ending source of entertainment!
Feeling- uncomfortable, excited, nervous, constant false contractions, tired, love, happy, emotional.
Making- lists of everything! Hospital bag list, grocery list, cleaning list, short term to-do list, long term to-do list, list for the lists….
Cooking- lots of soups, freezer meals and toast.
Drinking- hot milo, tea, juice and soda water and not enough water.
Reading- blogs about babies and birth and living in the country.
Marvelling- at the miracle of childbirth… Or more the miracle of how something so big comes out of something so small…
Wanting- more chocolate.
Looking- at my 2 year old a lot and trying to remember these moments where it’s just you and me, kid.
Playing- a constant stream of Monsters Inc., The Wiggles and the clip from Frozen where Elsa sings Let it Go. It entertains my 2 year old, gives me a rest and I don’t feel a hint of guilt for using the TV as a babysitter!
Wishing- for a quick and uncomplicated birth and a healthy baby!
Enjoying- the naps I get in the middle of the day with a particular little snuggle-bug.
Wondering- if we will still get to have our naps together when our new addition arrives.
Waiting- for my husband to get home from work…
Loving- my family. They’re all so awesomely wonderful in their own unique ways.
Watching- Lots of Netflix, in particular trying to get in a few episodes of Call the Midwife. I think I’m a bit obsessed with birth and babies at the moment…
Pondering- life as a mother of two…
Considering- a job change or a change in career? Maybe along the same lines but out of the hospital. Maybe I could do a few courses once the baby is born…
Deciding- is a hard thing for me at the moment. My brain is too full of other thoughts to have to decide things so nick has taken over decision-making duties. Although I’m very good at deciding what I want to eat. That is rarely a problem for me.
Buying- little onesies (you can never have too many, the zip ones are the best), children’s rugs from Ikea and milk and bread for hot chocolates and vegemite toast.
Hoping- Nick is at home or close by when I go into labour so I don’t have to call an ambulance!
Thinking- about the near future, where it isn’t just us 3 anymore but us 4. Will I mourn the loss of having one-on-one time with my first born or will I be too sleep deprived and busy to notice? Will it feel significantly different or just a natural shift in life? I guess only time will tell…
Smelling- freshly laundered newborn baby clothes.
Following- clothing pages on Facebook when I know I can’t afford it. It’s just torturing myself really…
Noticing how cold it is getting. I love winter but I also love to be cozy and warm. It is the perfect excuse to snuggle in bed for a nap or watch a movie with my very cuddly first born.
Admiring- my husband. He has been working so hard lately, then coming home and doing all the jobs I couldn’t do throughout the day, feeding, bathing and putting our 2 year old to bed and only sitting down for the first time at 8pm but not before making me a cuppa with some chocolate. And he never once complains.
Sorting- through bags of old baby clothes and putting them in drawers. Also sorting through the hospital bag, rearranging things, putting things in and taking things out. I hope I don’t forget something important like nappies! Did I put in the nappies…?
Getting- so ready for this baby to come! Every moment I am ready for this baby to come!
Snacking on Granny Smith apples and dried apricots this week. Last week it was vita wheat biscuits with butter, cheese and tomato. And always chocolate at night…
Closing- or trying to close my mind to unhelpful thoughts.
Dreaming- of my waters breaking and going into labour. I dreamt of the full birth a few nights ago and my mum was there to help instead of Nick. It was a nice dream, I felt very calm and loved up when I awoke.
Hearing- the rain falling on the tin roof and hoping it fills up our water tanks incase I need a deep bath or long shower when I’m labouring at home!
Soon you will be here little one and I will look back at this list and… probably roll my eyes and laugh.
Lilla xx